Ep.106: Dirty Feet.

Hello, I’m Daniel Westfall on the channel “Pray With Me”. 

In Genesis, when Abraham had three visitors, he gave them water to wash their feet. When I saw my podiatrist, she didn’t give me water to wash my feet. She put on plastic gloves to keep a sanitary, professional and impersonal distance from my feet.

In John 13, Jesus didn’t give the disciples foot-washing water like Abraham, and he didn’t keep a professional distance like the podiatrist. Instead, he wrapped a towel around his waist, knelt before the disciples one-by-one and washed their feet–Thomas the doubter, Judas the traitor, Peter the denier, John the lover. As he studied their dirty feet and applied the water and towel, what message did he communicate?  I think he was saying three simple things:

1. First, he was demonstrating, “I love you enough to serve you in dirty, menial ways.”

2. Second, his action pointed out that the religion he was teaching is not all about morality and healing and resurrections and miracles. It’s also about doing very mundane acts of service, in very personal ways. 

3. And third, he told his disciples, that it is an option for them to do the dirty work. No need to wait for the servants and the janitors and the cleaning lady. Step right up, folks. You too can get your hands dirty. 

I am drawn to the symbolic meaning of footwashing. When Jesus stooped to wash Peter’s feet, Peter said, “This isn’t appropriate for you to do, Jesus. I don’t want you to wash my feet.” Jesus replied, “Unless I wash you, you have no part with me.”  Peter replied, “Then wash all of me–feet, hands, and head.” But Jesus said, “If you’ve had a bath, you’re clean enough. All you need is a touch up on the feet.” 

Jesus discouraged two solutions for dirty feet, and offered one solution. 

First, Jesus had no time for a religion focused on keeping feet clean. That was the Pharisees religion–rules and control that tell you how to manage your behavior to keep yourself clean. Jesus message to the Pharisees was, “Your solution doesn’t work. Your feet are as dirty as everyone else’s.”

Second, Jesus discouraged minimizing the problem of dirt. He knew that it’s dirty out there, and he knew that dirt clings to you. Kneeling in front of the disciples with bucket and towel, he invited them to believe that the dirt of the world had made you dirty again. 

The solution Jesus encouraged is to bring the dirty feet to him. He says to us, “I’m here every day to wash your feet.” Go into the world without fear, live in your human culture with all its moral muddle, walk on the dirty roads, be my followers there. And then come to me, and let me wash away the dirt, and serve you bread and wine for supper.

Let’s pray. 

Jesus, we liked it when you showed your power–healing the sick and feeding the crowd and criticizing the religion of the Pharisees and predicting who will betray you and who will deny you. But when you kneel in front of us with bucket and towel, we shrink back. Shouldn’t we hide our dirty feet, or deal with them in private, or cover them with clothes? You’re not a servant, why are you suddenly acting like one?  

But still you touch our feet and wash them with your hands and wipe them with your towel.

Jesus, we need this. We bring to you relationships where we have dirtied ourselves with envy or jealousy or gossip or fear or avoidance. We bring to you private thoughts where we have betrayed you and your law. We bring to you deep seated fears that expose our unbelief and anxiety. O Jesus, kneel before us, wash our feet again, teach us the father’s love. 

Amen. 

I’m Daniel on the channel “Pray with Me”.

Ep.105: Psalm 44: God, You’ve Failed Us!

Hello, I’m Daniel Westfall on the channel “Pray with Me”. 

Psalm 44 presents the most spectacular, the most visceral, the most vigorous criticism of God in the Psalms so far. 

The poet begins subtly enough, with an account of how God helped Israel on their journey to the promised land, driving out the nations before them (v. 1), crushing the inhabitants (v. 2), planting the Israelite ancestors on the land and making them flourish. The poet says it was not the military skill of the army that achieved this –the victory was a gift of God’s love, won by God’s skill and God’s strength (v. 3). 

The poet says that it works the same way in his day:
    You are my King and my God
        who decrees victories…;
    Through you we push back our enemies;
      I put no trust in my bow,
        my sword does not bring me victory;
      You, God give us victory over our enemies  (vv. 4-8). 

That’s an unbeatable military arrangement–God loves his people and helps them win battles. The poet feels this is the expected outcome of the covenant between God and Israel: Israel worships God and follows his laws, and God supports his people, giving them success in everything they do. 

But the poet doesn’t end on this positive note. His army has recently suffered a humiliating military defeat, and he is looking for someone to blame. He says to God:
    You have rejected and humbled us (v. 9).
    You made us retreat before the enemy (v. 10).
    You gave us up to be devoured like sheep (v. 11).
    You sold your people for a pittance (v. 12).
    You make us a reproach to our neighbours (v. 13). 
     You crushed us and made us a haunt for jackals (v. 19). 

The God who used to help them did not show up for this battle. Surprisingly, he was not even an impartial observer. He was an active participant in the defeat. He rejected, abandoned, and sold them to their enemies.  Why did he unexpectedly quit helping them? Why did he turn traitor and hand them over to their enemies? Did he forget his covenant with Israel?

But in the end, the poet turns to this God who failed him, who turned traitor against him. He asks God to resume honoring the covenant, praying:
    Do not reject us forever (v. 23)
    Rise up and help us;
      Rescue us because of your unfailing love (v. 26). 

Let’s pray. 

God, you have a covenant with us too. You adopted us into your family. You feed us with living water. You give us true bread to eat. We feel your great love for us. We have have built our lives on this covenant relationship.

But now things have gone wrong–our children have rejected you, our church is stuck in painful arguments, some of us are unemployed, depression and cancer haunt our days, we face demons of fear and anxiety within.

Where are you when we need you God? Why are we sinking into the pit again? When St. Teresa of Avila was on a dangerous journey she said, “God, why do you keep putting obstacles in our way?” You replied, “I always treat my friends like this.” And Teresa responded, “Ah Lord, that must be why you have so few of them.”  https://fauxtations.wordpress.com/2016/10/03/st-teresa-of-avila-if-this-is-how-you-treat-your-friends/

Ah Lord, we are with St. Teresa. We are with the poet. No wonder you have so few friends. But we remember your covenant with us. We press on past your failure to help us, past your indifference, past the obstacles you set in our way. We still claim you as our God, we still know we are your children. O Lord, we expect you to treat your children better than this. Now would be a good time to start. Rescue us because of your unfailing love.

Amen.

I’m Daniel on the channel “Pray with Me”.

Ep.104: Who Lives and Who Dies?

Hello, I’m Daniel Westfall on the channel “Pray With Me”. 

John 12 marks the end of Jesus’ public ministry, and the beginning of the story about his death.

Up to this point, Jesus has been interacting with many people in many ways: making wine at the wedding, advising Nicodemus to be born again, offering living water at the well, healing the paralytic and the blind, feeding and lecturing the crowd, and finally  raising Lazarus from the dead. 

John 12 begins with Jesus attending a party at Lazarus’ home, where Mary anointed his feet with a pint of very expensive perfume. Judas, the accountant in the crowd said, “Hey, that’s a waste. We should have sold the perfume and given the money to the poor.”  Jesus replied, “She has anointed me for my burial.”

Anoint Jesus for burial? Is he planning his funeral? 

The story got briefly onto a better track when Jesus rode into Jerusalem on a donkey, to the wild cheers of the crowd who said, “Blessed is the king of Israel.” King Jesus? Is he now a political celebrity? Apparently miracles and free lunch get out the vote every time. 

But Jesus wasn’t consulting the polls and playing to the crowd. Instead he said, “I will draw everyone to myself when I am lifted up on a cross.” And he said, “A grain of wheat must fall into the ground and die.” 

The crowd replied, “Moses said the Messiah will live forever. What’s this about death?”

Jesus said, “I have come as light. Believe in the light, so you won’t keep walking in darkness.” 

When they heard this, some people believed openly, some believed privately, and some didn’t believe at all. John, astounded at pervasive unbelief in the face of momentous miracles, explains it by quoting the prophet Isaiah. 
God has blinded their eyes
            and hardened their hearts,
    So they cannot see with their eyes
              nor understand with their hearts (John 12:40, quoting Isaiah 6:10).

Jesus opened the eyes and the hearts of the blind man and the paralytic and Lazarus. But many eyes and hearts remained closed.

Let’s pray. 

Jesus, we love your public ministry in John. Winemaker of Cana, whip maker at the temple, lunch maker for the crowd, giver of new birth and living water. You called Lazarus from the grave and rode like a king into Jerusalem. 

But in every success, you hinted of impending disaster. Will you be a victim of the whip you used in the temple? After free lunch, is the next menu your body as meat and your blood as wine? Does Mary’s anointing prepare you for the grave? Are you the grain of wheat that falls into the ground and dies? 

Jesus, in our troubled times the strong and arrogant raise themselves to kingship–Donald Trump, Vladmir Putin, Xi Jinping. When you were strong and popular, leading the parade into Jerusalem, why didn’t you raise yourself to kingship?

And why is John’s gospel so insistent on dividing people into those who believe and those who don’t? Is there some hidden meaning in this story of your life that only faith can understand? Is there some unexpected turn in your road where only believers can follow? Will your light and life soon give way to darkness and death? Jesus, help us walk with you where John takes us in your journey. Help us walk with you where you take us in our journey.

Amen. 

I’m Daniel on the channel “Pray with Me”.

Ep.103: Psalm 43: Prayer to God my Lawyer.

Hello, I’m Daniel Westfall on the channel “Pray with Me”. 

Instead of presenting Psalm 43 as a separate Psalm, many Hebrew Bibles position it as as the last stanza of Psalm 42. However,  since I use an English Bible, I use the English numbering so I don’t confuse myself. 

In this psalm, it looks like the poet is in exile. Enemies drove him from his Jerusalem home to the remote countryside. He opens with a request that God plead his case against his enemies. I like that picture of God–a personal injury lawyer suing my enemies for damages.

The poet goes on to describe his experience and ask God to help him. He says,
    You are God my stronghold,
        Why have you rejected me?
  Why must I go about in gloom,
        oppressed by my enemies?
  Send me your light and your truth,
  Let them bring me to your holy mountain,
      to the place where you dwell. 

God is supposed to be his stronghold, his protector, his light. But he complains that God has rejected him, consigning him to darkness and gloom, making him an easy target for his enemies. He asks God to send him light and truth so he can find his way to the temple where God dwells, and to the community of worshippers who gather there. Then he will worship God joyfully with music and song. 

He concludes by repeating his refrain from Psalm 42,
    Why are you downcast, my soul,
      Why so disturbed within me?
    Hope in God,
      For I will yet praise him,
      My Savior and my God. 

Let’s pray. 

God, with the poet, we want you to be our personal injury lawyer. Where we have been the unfair subject of legal battles—business lawsuits, divorce proceedings, custody battles, accident claims, and other unjust actions—we turn the file over to you. Drag our enemies into court, sue them for everything they have, save us from their unjust claims. Where we have been victims of personal relationship failures—where people have not respected our boundaries, where family have been angry without reason, where parents have failed us, where siblings distrusted us—we invite you to protect us, to come to our defense, to overthrow the false claims, to stop the manipulation and control, to expose the lies and deceit. 

God, we join the poet in asking you to be our light and our truth. We have walked long years in darkness, in valleys of sickness and poverty, doubting often that you care, and sometimes that you exist. We have tried to live by the power of positive thinking, or by the strength of despair, by the light of human wisdom, or by escape into fantasy. But all these have failed us, and we return empty handed to you. Send your light, send your truth. Let them lead us. Let them bring us to the pace where you dwell. 

    Why are you downcast, my soul,
      Why so disturbed within me?
    Hope in God,
      For I will yet praise him,
      My Savior and my God. 

What is hope but waiting patiently, expecting you to act?  Accept our patient waiting, God. We are the deer panting for your water. We are the swimmers, pummeled and washed in your waves. We are victims, harassed by our feelings of darkness, beaten by our enemies. But we wait for you and we hope in you. Rescue us, save us. Bring us soon to your house, where we will worship joyfully in your presence. 

Amen.

I’m Daniel on the channel “Pray with Me”.

Ep.102: Raising the Dead.

Hello, I’m Daniel Westfall on the channel “Pray With Me”. 

In John 11, Lazarus was very sick, so his sisters sent word to Jesus. He said to his disciples, “This sickness won’t end in death. It is for God’s glory.” Then he ignored the sisters’ request for two days, and finally said to his disciples, “Ok. Time to head south to Judea.”

The disciples said, “Whoa! They tried to kill you last time you went there.” Jesus said, “Not a problem. And by the way, Lazarus has died. But good news! What happens will increase your faith.” 

The disciple Thomas said, “Let’s get on with it then. We can follow Jesus to Lazarus’ death, and his death, and probably ours too.” Not much faith there. 

When Jesus arrived in Judea, Lazarus’ sisters said to him, “If you had been here, our brother wouldn’t have died.” Jesus said, “I am the resurrection and the life.” And Jesus wept. Perhaps he wept for the sorrow of death, perhaps out of compassion for the sisters, perhaps he wept for the lack of faith everywhere he looked. 

Then he went to Lazarus’ grave, got them to roll the stone away from the entrance, and he said to the decomposing body, “Lazarus, come out.” And out he came, wrapped in linen grave clothes. 

When the Pharisees heard, they were not impressed and they said, “If we let him go on like this, everyone will believe in him, and the Romans will come and take our temple and our nation.” Caiaphus, the high priest, said, “You’re right about that. It would be better for this man to die, and the nation will be saved.” 

John, the gospel writer, explains that this was an unintentional prophecy. He says, “Caiaphus was right. Jesus will die to save the Jewish nation, and not only that nation, but also the scattered children of God. He will bring them together and make them one.” 

Let’s pray. 

Jesus, along with Lazarus’ sisters, we wonder why you don’t show up sooner in our sickness and pain and sorrow, before death does its final work.

With Thomas we are tempted to despair and cynicism. “We’re going to die anyway. Might as well follow Jesus to Lazarus’ death, and his own death, and probably ours too.”

With the Pharisees we want religion. But not religion out of control. Jesus, your person and teachings push the boundaries of everything that makes life stable and predictable for us. You challenge our view of sickness, of religion, of faith, of death.

We hear you say, “I am the resurrection and the life.” Jesus, we believe in the resurrection of the body. But what do you mean, that you are the resurrection and you are the life? We come to you looking for healing not death, for clarity not questions, for a religious system we can believe in, not a person who throws our lives into turmoil and weeps over the grave. 

Jesus, today we receive you as you are, the man of resurrection and life. We receive you into our dying bodies, into our troubled minds, into our wayward spirits. We trust you to bring the scattered children of God together and make them one. Jesus, be our life in this age and in the age to come.  

Amen. 

I’m Daniel on the channel “Pray with Me”.